I can’t believe that more than 25 years has passed me by, and that the year 2011 is coming to an end. 2011 has certainly been a year with many ups and downs, not only for me, but for the entire world. Somehow, I might be starting 2012 with a low note. But I certainly have to pick up the pace in my life by establishing a base for me to work on. There isn’t much time, but there are certainly much to do.

With 2011 coming to an end, I guess it is time to reflect what  I had done, what I had learned, and how did it pan out (which nothing close to what I had expected my 2011 to be). So I am gonna do a quick and brief reflection as I could possibly do, instead of going much of the boring details of my presumptuous life.

Lets start from the top, shall we. The beginning of 2011 was a very slow start for me as I was attempting to be a full time blogger (naive move on my side, and I strongly believe it was a way to live then, but now no longer). The naive me was attempting to keep up by doing a post daily to ensure that my blog thats listed high up in the rankings. I noticed that my writing is far too personal as compared to a few other bloggers whom I was looking up to (I have been writing that way for a long time now). Nonetheless, I continued on this pursuit for quite awhile, but it is not without its ridicule (that was happening behind my back).

I took my period of attempting to become a full time blogger as a short recovery period for me. This naive attempt left me hanging high and dry before I was forced to get a job. It was then that I started to be part of the group-buying industry that was certainly picking up throughout the various industry that it had its hands in. The company I started out with is an exclusive partner of another company that I had previously applied to, but failed to get into the position that I wanted. However, the journey in this new company was sort of a lonely one, making it tough on me, and even at times, gotten me quite worried (but it was quite a fruitful journey towards the end).

My journey was filled with a whole lot of appointments and also with much social activities, like screenings and events thanks to Nuffnang, as well as the group-buying site I was with at that time. During my short (in my terms it is short, but who keeps count) stint, I certainly made quite a number of new friends. It was also during my stint that I learned about the harsh realities of this industry and its detriment towards any industry it had touched. Well, it is not just locally, but rather, globally (not going into this right now, maybe in another post, if I feel like it). Still, I had much fun working and socializing at the same time.

I certainly had fun making new found friends who writes blogs pretty much better than I do. I envy their passion, as I continue to draw away from my own blogging. However, we all shared a lot of things with each other regarding our blogs and our writings and our experiences. It was quite an eye opener for me as well. I was certainly drawn into the community of the blogosphere, but I myself become an alien from my own blog and writing for it. In the process, I did make an enemy or two (or even more, especially for those who does not make it known to me) which loathes me till the inside of my guts, and they can’t stop making ridiculous remarks at times. But, really, if I were to bother with them, it would be much wasted time on them. However, there were a few friendship that blossomed pretty well, while others just grew strong and made me realize, I am not alone.

Knowing that I am not alone, plays a huge factor in my emotional side, as there were much fun, as there is to sadness, and even anger. But all these emotions has impacted my life in one way or another resulting the ups and downs in my life throughout 2011. However, I remember someone who was close to me mentioned, it is best to record down the good times rather than keeping tabs with the not so good times. I certainly hope to hold true to that, or rather, not post it up publicly in that manner.

With so much happiness in this year, I just could not believe, I was not able to follow through with a promise that I had made to myself. However I decided to follow through with that promise for 2012, and hopefully the many years onwards (or even till I am 6 feet under).

This wordy post, is just for me to reflect on my own 2011 and how much I have become in this year. I gotta say, I am still quite a disappointment, but I will do my best not to be as such. I am not sure how I would like to become, I believe that, I shall start with a few small things, and these small things are certainly tougher than I thought. Start small, and focus on them before moving onto the other small things for me to fix.

2011, you have been good to me in many ways allowing me to learn from my many mistakes (some repeated like a whole shit load of times, pretty stupid of me), and grow to be (I really hope soooo badly) a better person. Farewell 2011, as your time is almost up. You shall be missed, as there were many fond memories created.

As for 2012, I do hope and wish that it would be a more enjoyable year to be in (I think I can achieve that more after reading a little bit more on focus and being zen).

Just a nobody, signing off.